Days Till A New Year
When I was a teenager, turning thirty was never on my mind. I don't think a lot of people knew this, but I always thought I would die on my thirtieth birthday. I convinced myself that I had seen the future and that was my fate. Fortunately for me, that did not happen, and here I am, getting ready to celebrate another thirty-something birthday. I love my life more and more each day. During my early twenties, I started hoping that I would make it past thirty. Basically, I started appreciating the things life had to offer, and I wanted more of it. Being in my thirties is no longer enough. I want to see it all, taste it all, feel it all, experience it all, and more importantly, I want to live as long as I possibly could.
Each year for the past fourteen years on my birthday, I would wake up in the morning, take a very long reflective shower. During this time, I would examine all the significant events of the previous year and proceed to scrub off my past year while I chant to myself "I wash away all failures and welcome success". After my shower, I would get dressed and go see a recently released movie. I usually pick the film during the previous year and stick to it. Every woman I have ever been with during those years knew this was something I do and even when they did not like it, they still allowed me to perform my birthday ritual because it was necessary to me.
This year was different. I did not see the movie I had selected. It would've been Guardians of the Galaxy Vol 2. Even though I was able to perform the rest of my birthday rituals, I felt incomplete. I did not fully grasp how much this routine meant to me until this year. So for the first month after my birthday, nothing ever felt right. Deep within, something was missing. After talking to one of my mentors about it, she asked me this, "why don't you just do the movie now?" Just like that, my year took a turn for the better. So I selected a new movie to go see and just doing that changed my outlook on life. In case you are curious, I chose Wonder Woman. I actually enjoyed it.
The lesson I learnt from this experience is this, it is never too late to change the things you do not like about your current situation. As long as you are alive, you have an opportunity to change your life. In a week, I'll be celebrating another birthday, and I am excited to see what the future holds. This year has been a critical one in my life. I have learnt so much about myself in just one year that I am eager to put all the things I have learnt into practice this coming year.
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